Now what M I supposed to dooooooooo???????

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A new day ransacked my life and it's sudden effect is dwindling my senses amidst the garbage of improbability. Being a girl just out of my Master degree sans proper job, sans proper boy friend...ooops that should be any boy friend ....I am very much falling short of any justifications to not to get my arse down to achieve my "self proclaimed aspirations". The skyline which I chose for myself although is a little high set, yet any possibility of not being able to achieve it will be extra demeaning and almost slaughtering my confidence to the level that the term-LOOSER will no longer be a misnomer for me.

If people reading my Blog conceives it to be the derivative of an extensively frustrated mind annoyed with the turbulence of uncertainty then Hello….. let me accept… Yes INDEED it is! I am in no mood to grant myself exclusivity from the preponderance of such peculiar yet very popular frame of mind. Yet the feeling is undeniable.

“Conflicting Thoughts”, is what juggling in my mind as of now. Bespattered with the thoughts of future and uncertainty there is a WWE match that is successfully running within my head. My dreams, aspirations and understanding are screwing each other to win over the correct path that would lead on to making the correct choice for my career. Amidst all sort of anticipations and anxiety the most crucial problem remains to find my true destination. The road that would lead me to my destination is getting blurred on a daily basis, giving way to the deviating thoughts to emerge. I want to proclaim both success and power, but the hurricane effect of juggling between available career prospects is making me feel nauseous. Do I need to reshuffle my options???????????

Nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii………………….. Yea nahiiiiiiii ho sakta…….!!!!!! That is the outburst of my ardent filmy self who now blurts out almost uncontrolled every now and then reaffirming the delicate state of mind that I am going through. As a child my aspirations metamorphosed from being an army officer, to marrying one, from being a hot shot journalist to a PR and now when I Know what I want to do I am losing out of options to juggle. There is no looking back for me, because that will connote trailing back instead of walking ahead. So the end question remains very plausible …………. Philosophies have run with their ass upside down and yes if I ever get through them I would not mind attacking them.

Sheer sympathy... is what i feel for myself while the question remains unresolved.......

How am I supposed to get it???????????????